Jun 6, 02:19 by Ivonne Dippmann
February to June 2011
Tel Aviv, Israel
Selbstsehportrait / Konstanze Seifert
Kurt und Emma Wächtler
A FLEUR DE PEAU / BEZALEL MFA THESIS EXHIBITION
6/6/11 – 18/6/11
Jaffa Port, Hangar 2
My favorite stone is a diamond. It is pure and contains the universe. I readjust my haircut often, it marks a change in my life. I like to be alone, it’s honest I think. In the morning I get up very early. I don’t drink coffee, only tea – without sugar. My favorite place is my bed. I could stay there for days and hide. I don’t go out at night, because nightlife bores me. I don’t understand people who need to display their charms in bars surrounded by the violence of the noise of others.
I am single. I don’t belief in marriage, it somehow reminds me of fitted kitchens. The vows “forever” and “never” trouble my mind. I hate liars. I dream almost every night. I dream in color. I never had a television and I avoid black electricity cables. Every day I remember my childhood. I loved to eat spinach and to run in the woods. Most of the time I spent with my grandparents who lived around the corner. I miss them.
I love fashion, but I truly don’t like shopping. It is an unreasonable demand to spend time in shopping malls. I started to dislike them when I lived in America.
I find high heels very appealing and sexy, but I cannot enjoy wearing them. They reduce my ability to walk fast or to run. I am not a dandy. When I move freely I feel alive. The desire of arrival? – I deny. I strongly believe this thought is misleading and of possessive nature.
I am afraid to forget. My friend said you never lose your life, but I am not sure about it. I spent hours remembering, reassuring my very existence. The brain changes memory over time. The “actual” situation back then remains impossible to remember. This is not fair! I take many pictures, but I never make back ups. I print.
I love unconditionally. I cannot break with people I love. I feel empty when they leave my life. To let go is something I haven’t learned yet. I left many times. Leaving belongs to the most exhausting experiences in my life. “In between the gaps” I sit down. I have my eyes closed. I break.
I don’t understand the meaning of God. Sometimes I pray and I am very impressed by old churches. A great occasion to experience silence.
I believe in ghosts. I avoid taking the metro, because I don’t feel comfortable to be underground. If I go by bike I am afraid to die. I spent most of my money on food and books. My fridge is always full, my mind too.
I haven’t met an interesting person for a long time. It becomes harder to meet someone who I can really talk to. Most of the conversations end with a compromise. Sometimes it is very hard to believe that everything what happens is for my best. Today is Friday.
Heavyweight black blazerpattern, woven blend (top part)
Two canvasas / black ink on canvas folded and reversed, leather implements, one silver chain, two spraypainted feathers, metal table (three pieces) and four glass plates
2 m x 2 m
(Detail) The universe
Bodenkonstruktion Nr. 1a
Black ink on canvas, one silver chain
2 m x 2 m
The Slaughtered Ox
Golden leather, silver implements, metal construction and nickel
1,50 m x 1,10 m